Or a dramatic way to notify y'all of a newsletter update.
For the last few months, I’ve felt guilty as I’ve crossed off my weekly ‘newsletter’ planner reminder without actually writing a newsletter. Simultaneously, I’ve known that it’s the right decision to make as I spent most of those months in a stress-filled fog of what I think has to be described as depression. I’ve only started coming out the other side in the last three or four weeks.
I learned this week that my job hunt to remain in the UK has officially turned up fruitless. Needing to transition my student visa to a work visa + economic impacts of the pandemic on grassroots community work + needing the position to remain remote for the foreseeable future because of my heart condition = very few possible opportunities in the first place, all of which are also being sought out by loads of other people.
Which is to say: I’ll be returning to my parents’ home in Missouri in late March.
In the meantime, I want to use this space to say goodbye to Belfast properly. I’ve been trying to do so with my camera: wandering my favorite streets, capturing my favorite places or mundane spots filled with memories. As I’ve learned, it’s impossible to photograph what I will miss about this city in the midst of a pandemic because what I will miss the most is currently absent or unavailable to me. So rather than try to crop out all of the boarded up shop fronts or the signs reminding us to wear masks and stay distanced, I want to write as a means of celebrating why I want to call this place home permanently.
Therefore, I’ll be using this newsletter to write goodbye letters to what and who I will miss most about living in Belfast, what I know will eventually bring me back here once it’s safe and possible for me to return. In the meantime, look after yourselves.